Eilisa, Justine Fears entered this world at 5:25 AM at the Osteopathic Hospital KCMO. Her father Dale Allen Fears and I Sheila Fears, tried to conceive a child. There were so many problems we thought we would never have a child together. We had attend a fertility clinic, it didn't look promising for her father and I. But God always works his miracles. Our family attended the Rose of Sharon Church before her birth. The Churched laid hands on Her Father and I. All we could do was Thank God and praise him for his glory and his love. A word spoken in the church from God, that I would have a girl, her name will be Eilisa "Consecrated to God" "Holy" "Justine" stands for the Just One in God. What a miracle she was but all of my children are. She was quit the young lady beautiful with big blue eyes and a little bit of blonde hair, she weighed 7lbs 12oz. A 5 minute delivery just in time to get to the hospital, Dr Davis was late so the Nurse delivered her into the world. Oh My what a wonderful gift to give birth to such a beautiful baby knowing she is of God! Eilsisa Justine Fears the Just One to God. What God has given to you in your 28 years of life.
The masterpieces of poop!
Jus, was around 8 months old when she decided to have her own art class, she was so proud of her work. Jus had found the art mixure to create her masterpiece of poo! She had painted the walls, the crib and of course her face. When I walked in all she did was giggle. I think she knew what she had done. I called her Dad in to see our little artist masterpiece. It took a long time to clean that mess up. Jus was always exploring things and I may say she was never afraid of anything. When she was two I took her and her brother to the park and she wandered off and climbed the tallest slide, Jus didn't make it down the slide she feel off and broke her arm. I was watching the kids in the park when I seen her on the slide it was too late for me to get to her because she had fallen off the top and broke her arm. Jus did good at the hospital it was clean fracture and only needed to be cast. She was sure proud of her casst, but she also learened it was weapon for her big brothers.
The road trip to find that prefect Montana cabin. I did alot of research on the internet looking for property. Ah! I found it the perfect Gold Mine. Here we go. The trip started with Jus's husband Mark and my husband Lonnie saying yes. I think he liked the idea of having a place in Montana. Anyway back to the story. We loaded up supplies, winter clothes, water, etc. and of course DVD's and a player to keep the kids entertained. Micah was 3 years old and Emily was about 1 year old. The trip was only 1300 miles not a problem. The winter was calm in Missouri and the weather reports all said clear sailing to Montana. Justine and I took turns driving and taking care of the kid's needs, you know lots of potty breaks and hunger. a few tears and fits but it was ok. We were on a mission to find that special place nested in the mountains of Montana's beauty. We arrived in Helena, Montana a couple of days later, stayed at the Holiday Express. The next day we met with a Realtor, can't recall her name but a very down to earth woman, almost like myself full of country, and just tries to get by with everyone. We must of looked at at least 6-9 properties, and land maybe more. I had found this one cabin on the real estate website, I copied off the cabin information and took it with me. I gave the listing to the Realtor, and she looked up the property and made an appointment to see the property. My car was a Ford Escape all wheel drive, only to mention that, because there was a lot of snow on some of the roads we traveled.The Realtor said we could make it up one road but not up the drive to the cabin. We drove along this beautiful winding snow packed road following the Little Blackfoot River in Ellsiton, Montana. The view was majestic, the trees glimmered with heavy snow and the river so clear and bright as the blue sky with a moose standing to the side of the river. We reached our destination but could not see anything. The reason was too much snow leading to the cabin. I walked up the mountain road, I mean the steep curving driveway in thigh high snow. avg snowfall in one year is about 10ft.
It was instant love for the cabin, a small unusual log cabin, not typical because the logs were vertical and horizonal. it was a beauty. not quit 4 acres, nested in the forest back in the mountains. It was a small two bedroom rustic cabin full of life, love and comfort. The one thing you knew about this cabin it was meant to be my memories and special place. I made it back down that road weighed down by the deep snow and told my Daughter Justine you go look. The Realtor thought she could get up the road with her big 4 wheel drive pickup. We loaded up and up the road we went. To see the look on Justine's face you would have thought she had just seen heaven. It was instant love of Montana, We danced, played and buried deep in the snow with the kids. We built snowmen with Micah, Justine looked at me and said Mom this is the place to be. Justine loved that place and Micah. So the deal was done we bought the little cabin nested in the mountians of Elliston Mt, over looking the Little Blackfoot River. We went back there just to play in the snow with the kids, before heading back to Missouri. What fun I had building a snowman with Micah and Emily, Justine played and her laughter so crisp in my mind at this moment never forgetting that smile, her laughter and of her children, playing, throwing snowballs at each other and making snow angels with the kids. I am glad I have this memory, It has made me tearful but it has also put a smile on my face to think how blessed I was to have a Daughter so full of life and love, That I can look back and say I remember you my beautiful daughter.
Here is a web link to the beauty we shared in Montana Big Sky Fishing.Com Glacier Park, Yellowstone Park, Little Blackfoot River.
Passed away on February 17, 2009.
I live in EL Centro, CA and I had been coming back and forth to take care of my cousin Brenda. She was 48yrs old and had cancer and was in the end stage of her battle. I promised her I would come back and be with her when her time came. I prayed with her and read the Bible to her. I had come back for Thanksgiving 2008. We all spent Christmas together at my Daughter's house, Justine. What a wonderful Christmas we had. We gave Justine and her brother a Disneyland memory book for a gift. They loved it. Every page had memories of our families at Disneyland and everything else we did in CA. My cousin became very sick and I stayed with her night and day by her beside until she passed Jan. 18, 2008. I was going to return home to CA, but my wonderful husband said no stay longer, so I could spend time with my family. I had been staying with my sister and visiting my family. I spent time with my daughter on her birthday, Feb. 4th. Then I went to her house on the Feb. 17th. My mom wanted me to spend the night with her and I said no I needed to stay with Justine. I walked to Justine’s house, she gave me that big smile and said I love you Mom, sitting on the couch. She was in college, so she was doing homework. We had dinner that night. It was the first time we ever got her to eat fish. Jus was so funny about fish or anything that came out of water when it came to eating food. Anyway, I was sitting in a chair across from the sofa. She was sitting by Carl, her boyfriend; she had been separated from her husband since July and was getting divorced. As the story goes, she was just playing with Sarah her 3 year old on her foot kind of like a horse ride, when she raised her head, she said whoa- then her head went back. Carl yelled at me. I am an RN and worked in ICU for years, so you know I knew what to do. I jumped up and slapped her a couple of times. Jussie wasn't breathing. I laid her down and started CPR. Carl called 911. They got there in 2 min. They were 2 blocks away. She has NO PULSE. I am still giving breath to breath. The police did CPR. The EMT got there. They shocked her so many times. Carl had called my mom to get the Kids. I made the kids leave the room. My mom was right down the street. When she drove up all I could do is run out of the house screaming at my mom “don't park, she is dead”. I screamed over and over. I hated the trip to the hospital. I knew the little room they place you in when there is bad news. The nurse came and got me and I took my mother and sister with me. I had to make the decision to stop the doctor from trying. It was too late. She was gone at 8:30PM. I stayed with my baby girl until 5AM so her father and wife, her brothers and half sister and her husband could get there. Jus was a donor. That was the other nightmare, even though I know now she helped so many others with her life. All I could do that night was run my fingers through her hair and smell her scent of shampoo and perfume. I lost my life that night and it has been a hard road to follow when you lose your only Daughter, leaving three young children behind. Jus, had fallen down the stairs three weeks prior to her death, hitting her head. She did go to the hospital twice. The CT was OK both times even though she had headache and a convulsion in class 4 days before passing. They told her if it continues to see a Neurologist. But the autopsy said she died from a cardiac arrhythmia. I thank God everyday for the month I spent camped out in San Diego that last summer with my Jus and her three kids. We did everything there was to do in CA. See…the funny thing is that Justine and her brothers grew up in CA when I was a Navy Nurse. Isn't it IRONIC!
