Justine, always with a smile, always with a kind word. So full of life. She was way too young to be taken from us. We don't understand why & we never will. Dear Lord, please take care of her children, her mother, her grandmother, husband, & all of her family. Give them the strength to get through each day without her. Someday they will all be together again. You are in our thoughts & prayers each & every day, Justine. You will never be forgotten.
Jussie,
It's one of those days when I think I can't go on. I just can't stop crying. I miss you to much, some days it's not even worth going on or getting out of bed. It seems these days have been really hard. The memories of the night you died flood my mind. I can't stop them, from the time you took your last breathe, and the time I gave you your last breathe. Jus, the pain is so hard and cruel. I am back in CA. I bought and Angel petting a lion and a lamb, andI placed it under one of our flowering trees near the roses; I placed your grave marker there with four lights around it. I also placed a flower hook next to the Angel with a pink heart with ribbons and a daisy that lite up at night. I am so sorry that I am having such a hard time with loosing you. I try so hard to find a place where I can go on but there just isn't any place to go. I am so lost, I am grieving for the kids I can only think what they must be going through with out their mother. All three of the kids are afraid to go into a room alone, or turn on a light. They think they might die. Please God help me, guide me and to find a place of comfort, because I am so lost and hurt and finding it difficult to go on. I need my grand kids it's the only thing that I have that I see their mother in them. I know this not a memory of life but a memory of grief and a deep, deep, seeded pain. I love you Jus, and it hurts to miss you.
Mom
Justine,
Hello our little Angel, we just came from the cemetary,, Dad loves your marker this is the first time since you crossed over that he has gone out. His heart was so full of joy when the kids came to visit the first week of March. I talk to your mom alot, there is so much I wish I could change, so much lost time-- but what is gone is gone and we have to learn from our mistakes and go on to live better lives. We are so glad that we can be a part of you little ones lives, dad says he can see alot of you in each one of them and as long as he can see them he knows you are still with us. We found some pictures of your 7th birthday, when we went to chucky cheese, grandpa Glen and grandma Dorthory stazie and phillip, you were so happy all the time and so full of love for everyone. Your kids are the same way,
they held onto grandma dorothy when they were at the farm and were so glad to know they had a great grandma and that their moms dad and "grandma Dee" loves them and wants to spend time with them. Stazie reminded me of the time you and her went shopping together, you guys stopped by the rail yard to get some cash, and my boss was there and said what beautiful daughters I had!!
so it's not just me and dad that think you a special and that you touched so many people in your short time here. This may sound like I'm just running in circles but we don't have the internet at the farm and we are in the city today for Dr. apts so I stopped by my sisters and used her computer just to tell you that we think of you every day and miss you so much. You will always be daddys little princess and my best friend. We did have a good friendship going and I wish I could go back in time and change whatever went wrong, lucky for me that we got together in 2006 and made things right.
I take so much for granted everyday, but I love every one of you kids and your kids and I do love your dad with all my heart and I know how lucky I am that God brought all of you into my life.
Thak you for watching over us and dad says for you to save us a place, and we'll be together someday soon,
Happy Mother's Day sweet heart
Until we can chat again
Love Dad and Diane
Today I planted dasiys, that was the flower you loved most. I bought a large big bag of multiple colored dasiys must of been a million seeds, I threw them to the wind in your Grandma' flowers garden, I know you can see them because your are here looking down from heaven you see the beauty of all of the color of spring,it was your facorite time of the year. It's beautiful everything is in full bloom, this is when I think of you this is when I think of you the most. The dogwood tree I planted last year did not make it so I planted a new one by your grave it is in full bloom it's a red dogwood tree. Your grave is beautiful, the new grass I planted is bright green I think it is the greenest grass there. I miss you daugther, and my love is with you. Mom
