Jus, it has been almost two years since you left us. It seems like everyone has come to terms with your death, although at times I still become overwhelmed with missing you. Today’s one of those days, I am going to carve a pumpkin and decorate your grave. I think you would like that. I have called Mark to see if I can get the kids and I will buy them their costumes and crave pumpkins like we use too. I miss you so much right now it just doesn’t seem fair. Sometimes I feel like I have panic attacks when I let my mind wonder back to the day it all happen. I know there are no answers but I still say why or how could this have happen. I love you Jus and miss you like crazy.
Our last Halloween, Justine loved Halloween; she would decorate her house and yard with all kinds of stuff. Jus always made sure she had three pumpkins for Micah, Emily and Sarah. Our last time together in October, I was her visiting from CA. I took them to the Halloween Express to buy costumes. Micah wanted to be everything, Emily a princess, and Sarah wanted to be a princess, we found a red and black dress for Sarah, although she was three, the terrible two’s hit Sarah at two years old, of course she had red devil horns and a tail. Emily dressed up in a purple princess dress and Micah a tall dark and handsome king. Micah wear a long dark blue velvet robe with a red satin lining and a gold rope belt. Micah had a sword in one hand and a scepter in the other hand. They were beautiful. We carved three pumpkins and placed them on the steps according two ages 7, 5, and 3. Their Dad Mark drove up from Clinton to go trunk or treat for Halloween with Justine and the kids. We went to the Independence square for trunk or treat. The theme was to keep the kids safe so people would park their cars at the church and allow the kids to go to the cars and stores in the daylight they had games set up for the kids, it was a grand time that Halloween.
Eilisa Justne Fears-McQuitty 2-4-1981 - 2-17-2009
We have been to the mountains with the sunlight shinning on our faces
We my Daughter have seen the beauty if God’s greatest master Pieces
I now see the valley full of never ending sorrow walking alone with each step I take
I feel the pain that ligers with each beat of my heart.
Missing the Daughter and I once had living and loving everything thing in site
You see she knew God and she was ready for home.
I pray to see you everyday just to know that you are OK, would be a gift I could never explain
I miss you Daughter I see your face, the beauty, your smile the laughter you brought, and most all your gentle heart. I miss you daughter your sweet face all the joy you brought to each one for twenty eight years.
May God hold you on this day and may we remember you were our gift, given to us to love and cherish on this day- Lord I pray for Justine today.
Hold her tight let a hand slip through, I need to feel her gentle touch. May the candle we light on this very night shine bright in thought of her and set this dove free in celebration of our love and prays for God above
Mom
We miss you Jus and Love you!
Merry Christmas Dec. 25 , 2009
Feb. 17th 2010 8:36PM
This road has been hard full of twist, turns and bends in this journey
I see your face your smile everyday when I wake, praying to God that your are safe
I look to the trees, the sky the stars that says you are nearby
My mind fills with that horrific night, that night I gave you your last breate, I stood by and watched
them trying to bring you back, but I knemwin my heart you had said goodbye
I ran down the road screaming you died, only to ask God why, you left me that night with your three little children, our hearts broken dreams falling apart
The children asking did I save their Mom, God why did you take her I don't understand
A wonderful Daughter and Mother too, so beautiful and loving we miss her so
We have gone down this road a year from this date, still asking God, why did she die?
We see your face we feel your touch we hear your voice in songs we hear
We miss you my Daughter and forever hold this hole in our hearts
You were a gift from God that died to soon,
he must hsve had a reason to take you home. Maybe, to prepare the path for us all, watching over us with your sweet scent oh so near We know you will guide us because you loved God so
You my Justine were a gift taken from earth to early to believe, but you will never leave my heart.
Aug 9th 2010
I just want to thank you and God for being with me on our cruise to Alaska. God must have been granting you a wish that came true. I saw and felt you with me the whole trip/ I met a girl that reminded of you when you were young she made me cry I ask her, her name and she said Eilisa, although it was spelt differently it was you. Ever were we went see the glaciers, eagles, bears and the whales feeding they said we were lucky to see every thing we did all in one trip. I knew it was you daughter that just had to have God show me so much beauty in this world. Thank God for the comfort you have given me. Jussie thanks for being with me.
Love Mom
